r/AnxietyChats

I'm fking nervous right now . I have a viva right now !! 😬😬😬

I feel like this is one of those things we don’t talk about enough, even though so many of us go through it.

This one really hurts. Wanting to do something, knowing it would be good or fun or important, but still avoiding it because anxiety gets in the way.

It can make you feel stuck, like you’re the only thing holding yourself back.

So if you’ve felt this, please say yes!

Help I’m worried I’m coming across badly with my sense of humour. I’m guessing it’s dry or something I can be sarcastic (I’m British) because I feel like I have to explain myself. Maybe I come across the wrong tone.

I’m kinda like maybe I shouldn’t talk or whatever but I say some as a joke and the person will get serious or be like I didn’t mean it like that even though they were joking too. I have to be like I was joking.

I don’t want to be mean. Is this something I’m overthinking.

im starting first year university this coming September and I dont feel excited whatsoever I only feel so anxious and scared. the school im going to is known as the "party school" and the first week is full of events and celebrations. im terrified of going to these things all alone especially since i have so much social anxiety and am pretty introverted. I really want to make friends as one of my fears is that i won't make any friends and ill be alone all through uni but me being petrified especially since its a new environment makes it even harder for me to put myself out there and talk to people. does anyone have any advice on if university is really that scary or bad?

Okay so I just found out I'm not weird, I'm just anxious apparently

okay so i just found out i'm not weird i'm just anxious apparently 💀

i literally cannot fall asleep without the tv on. not watching it. just… on. grey's anatomy has been playing in my bedroom every night for like 8 months and i live alone and it's embarrassing to admit but the silence genuinely scares me a little

looked it up last night and apparently it's an anxiety thing?? your brain can't handle silence because it just fills it with every thought you've been avoiding all day. so you reach for noise without even realizing that's what you're doing

and more than 1/3 of adults do this btw

if taking medication gives you your life back, how could that ever be something to be ashamed of?!

Mine is telling me that I've made a huge mistake at work and I will get into a major trouble for it and I should drop everything else and focus on panicking

How do you deal with uncertainty about what happens after death? I’m 99% sure there’s an afterlife, but that 1% haunts me. What if there isn’t one? What if my loved ones are just gone? How can I live without certainty of seeing them again?

I called up a friend after who said he was lying in bed. He got annoyed with me and made a big deal about him needing to rest- but then why not explicitly say that off the bat? I guess my chipper attitude was annoying. :/

I have a bf I think too, for the first time ever.

The past 10 years I went on meds that I didn't understand, I finally get why people called me naive. I went on blind trust for the longest time. I was in complete denial that people could be so wrong. I thought maybe I was wrong. But no, sometimes people are wrong. And meds are actually almost always wrong to start.

I learned a lot though, about communication, advocacy, self awareness, and friendship and family and travel.

I have $15k in debt. 0 income. 0 assets. And I'm in my 30s. But, I have my parents, I have friends, I have a dog, I have a home, and I can pick myself up.

These last 10 years- covid was brutal for everyone. But it's been 3 years since it ended. When I think about it I still get depressed. I think for my next session with my therapist I'll discuss covid, or other trauma points and how it is preventing me from getting a job for so long.

But what I wanted to say was that I did other things- I did online courses, travel, part time work, so it wasn't a waste and maybe I'm not a failure. Just unorthodox.

I haven't been able to keep my mind off it. I applied for an internship and I have to get everything done etc etc.

So I send them an email and I have so many worries centering around it. During the appointment we talked about the duration of it and I am convinced they said halve a year was alright but now I'm thinking what if it was a trick of my mind. I wanted to get clarity through the email but I'm worried I might come off as stupid during it. It took me days to send it and I haven't been able to relax ever since. My heart rate is high, I'm sweaty and now I'm just waiting for the time to pass until I get a response.

How do I even deal with the small things like this? I'm already so stressed about the reply before I even send it to begin with

Hi,

I have suffered from anxiety since very young. The symptom I fear the most is dizziness. Just some secunds of dizziness can ruin my day and I get obsessed with it.

I have improved a lot with medication, but that fear of dizziness remains.

Any advice on this?

Thank you

Quitting Reddit this week, I should also address here that I'd know nobody cares and nobody shouldn't care about a piece of sht like me anyways.

However, I should address a few Redditors that are mentally struggling or questioning when will this cycle end?  U.S. Central time. Looking for worldwide connections and online only connections 🪶🦩🎭 

This is a SUPER long vent post, I would highly recommend you save your anger for your comments, because I don't read comments for these reasons here.

Yeah, I should also address that I just only read high quality chat req and low chat req get ignored in my chat req inbox anyways.

And if you can't include your interest, hobbies and expect me to do that myself yeah, go fk yourself I don't have the fks to give to do that anymore instead tell me what would you offer Dagon instead? Sleep Token and old-skool pun.

And someone asked me yeah, how long does a post take me to make?

Simple answer, I become a Lovecraftian modern person logging on my Email rough draft, type out something on my wireless keyboards, have a meltdown or two, then just step away from the Email letting my Vessel brain and skull start processing the next steps in the typewriter anyways.

Yeah, then just the final step is just go back to my tales of my insanity.

Just yeah, I should also address by the time you get done to listening to the spiritual masterpiece album Sundowning by Sleep Token then you would be already done with this post anyways 🌑

Yeah, to be honest nobody should trust a friend when they say I'll be here for you when no friends will be here for you in the end it's futile to trust others anymore.

However, I should address that eventually there has to be self-awareness within the person that eventually you will be left alone in the end of it all and nobody gives a damn about your sorry fk ass self anyways.

Because that is true, the nickname I've given myself is Elis which sounds similar to a virus and a disease.

Why would you want a friend that is a virus, a disease anyways?

However, I should address that I'm a person that wants to be needy, wants your attention, wants to be remembered by you, hearing your text messages. I miss you, I want you around, I care about you and you're a good person.

I feel like I've hit rock bottom, it's why I did drink in the late a.m. on my last post at 2 a.m. even though it's almost 5 a.m. central time now and a few Redditors were taken by surprise that I drink because oddly to the Redditors that sent me a chat were caught by surprised that I'm honestly the drinker type.

Yeah, coming from an ex alcoholic, alcoholism does sound good right around now and the reason why I've not gone back to my Past Self is the House of Veridian one of the crest mottos from that house is stability.

Yeah, I should also address that's the only reason why because I don't have anyone that honestly gives a sht because all my ex-friends were in my life because of self fk ass pity of it all.

It's the same thing for Redditors that come into my life and you want to tell me that ''I might not like you because I used to be a pass alcoholic and druggie.''

Yeah, I should address here the truth is nobody isn't a god-given angel in their early years in their early 20s, what matters now is the present and the future self of you is what I want to look at anyways.

Yeha, this could be seen as close to insanity when I say this but a bottle of whisky and coke lasts 6-8 months in the freezer and that's right I put my whisky in the freezer because I'd enjoy the altered taste just like my damn personality anyways 💀

However, I should address that's nsanity right? Well yeah, just wear me out like Prada devil in my detail.

Yeah, I should also address that I just don't want nobody asking me anymore how I'm doing those days are over and I don't think you want to know what it feels like to feel like your missin your wings in a realm of angels?

Yeah, I should address here if I'm going to be honest and the handful of times that I've gotten blocked for just being way too honest and I just can't keep doing this anymore sorry Redditors but I just can't do this anymore.

Yeah, to be honest, it's time to put down the roses and pick up the sword, right foot in the roses, left foot on a landmine and I just can longer have anyone tell me you care because you fk ass don't 🤡

Here are my other interests and hobbies.

Yeah, recently this month I got into YT cosmic horror podcast, stumbled on Horror Babble and I'd wonder if there are hardcore cosmic horror podcast goers who can show me where I should go nex as well.

And yeah, I should also address if my new serial send friendship can show me who I should listen to next and what stories I should pick up?

Yeah, just let me know where to go because I found Horror Babble VERY recently as well.

And yeah I should also address, I'd wish that Redditors would've seen my Steadfast Dwarven Spider uplift itself from a shout from a Deathlord, that was/were the most funniest thing I've seen this whole month currently 💀

However, just camera angle alongside with the dragon shout just was/were 🤣

Yeah, the camera angle you could hilarious see the 8 legs just lifted off the tomb ruins and just went flying FAR back 🤣

However, those Steadfast Dwarven spiders are well-built. I couldn't believe the spider was/were still alive after how far the spider got uplifted and went flying far back from the Deathlord shout far back.

Greek literature, I need to catch up on this though, Lovecraft stories (fascinating, just not the person.) Japanese Yokai lore, new technologies that are out, Skyrim is what I play every single day, if I'm not on YT or listening to music, occasionally everyday or every other day or two I get on Mario Kart 8 and on occasion Splatoon 3.

Yeah, this is just what interests me single day of the week, nothing changes and this is why asking me what's up will get VERY boring every single day.

Big Macs (no lettuce, no pickles and light Big Mac sauce.) Mcdonald's hot chocolate is amazing in flavor and 10 grams of protein for a small is awesome/kool.

Sea salt caramel.

Sugary or caramel perfume because you know that Sleep Token song huh?

Perfume that smells you walked out a forest because you know you got to remember the House of Veridian in the woods of Arcadia.

If you're also alternative, love deathcore, rock music, djent, different types of core and metal music and then just send me a chat req 🌸

Sleep Token is fusion music, that's what genre that I give Sleep Token as well 🦩

The standard Paradiddle 👑 II 🩷

Music.

Erra, Wage War, I See Stars, Currents, I'd enjoy a variety of metal genres/that even includes old-skool black metal and doom metal as well.

And yeah, just the style of old-skool-black metal bands that I'd enjoy are the 90s era of old-skool-black metal as well.

Lorna Shore (Will Ramos era only.)

How often do I go outside?

However, I should address that I'm not a people person and I'd only go out once or twice a week because I don't enjoy going out.

Yeah, just for me though I would rather be a metaphorical term of a Lovecraft unsocial hide away rathan me going out every single day to be around as well.

Highly disinterest me, maybe my Past Self would and it's just not for me anymore. Gave all away my blessings you know, put down my roses and picked up as well ⚔️

And yeah Lovecraft, I'd enjoy his books and just not the person that he is. Dagon and Mountain of Madness are my favorite as well 💯

However, I should also address that if you're in the grip of nsfw subreddits and you make a lot of comments in the nsfw-subs then don't message me not because of these reasons here.

Yeah, that just goes ''to show what kind of person you really are and I don't want to be around that kind of thing.'' I'm a gray 🩶 ace-poly but my friends don't need to be, I accept all friendships with any pronouns or sexyakuty as well.

Thanks for ignoring my chat req?

Yeah, your profile is completely blank, you can't say your asl, with hobbies, interests and you can only say hi 😂

That's just dry as 🦴 personality, your personality sounds dryer than wall plaster and I'm a VERY depressed person lately, just have some life to you because I don't 😂

Yeah, speaking of personalities for 6 months of being on Reddit I was/were only able to have less than 5 mature conversations about Sleep Token because of these reasons here.

Everyone has a kiddie-pool knowledge of Sleep Token and it's also rare to come across Sleep Token fans that understand that there are a lot of Japanese theatre (Noh.) influences as well.

This is why Reddit is fk ass sht, just close to the same as the Sleep Token community for SOME fake ass fans asking questions ''I don't understand the purpose of the masks, why do mask have to be worn in a ritual and photoshoots?''

Yeah, this person claims they've been listening to Sleep Token for a while yet you can't understand the meaning for a ''ritual.'' what do you think it is?

However, why do think SUPER kiddie-pool thinking and do you think it's just a jazzy-kool name?

However, I should address I just don't understand how people are not grasping the meaning of ''ritual.'' and that Sleep Token does have Japanese influences with Noh theatre and the reason why Japanese theatre that the masks are HIGHLY important to the person alongside the other dancers wearing the masks during a Japanese dance ritual 🪶🦩

I keep picturing in my head I’m going to d!e I had vision in my head I was going to have a seizure on the couch and d!e and now eating dinner I had a vision I was going to fall forward and whack my face on the table and d!e pls help (ps I never ever had a seizure before or fainted before ever) I’m so terrified somethings going on the symptoms I’m having are really scary but it’s apparently just anxiety!?

I can't talk to people normally anymore. I overthink what i am going to say, and end up just choking up on my words an ddont say anything at all. I feel awkward and not like myself. I never used to be this way, i used to be carefree but now i overthink everything so much. This makes me end up staying home when i should be experiencing things. I don't have any friends because i can't talk to anyone. I harp on embarrassing moment until im sick to my stomach, and lose sleep at night from stressing myself out so much. Anxiety has me on a very tight leash and no one understands, if there is any advice that would be helpful, it is very welcome here:)

I’ve had anxiety my whole life and I’ve always dealt with it pretty well on my own, recently I moved away for my first year of university last September and it was great, I had less anxiety attacks then ever and only had about two major panic attacks. But ever since moving back home about a month and a half ago I’ve been wrought with EXTREME anxiety that comes on in small bursts that last for only about ten minutes. These usually come on when I leave the house and I enter a car or a store, and they’re most intense when I’m alone and can’t access a bathroom (I’ll explain that later) and it’s wayyy worse in the mornings, like these symptoms tend to go away after 3pm for no apparent reason. What happens is I start to feel nauseated and my heart rate starts going very fast about 120ish when my resting rate is usually in the fifties. It feels like I’m going to throw up/poop myself and then suddenly my blood pressure will crash, I’ll loose a bit of my vision, and if I’m standing up while that happens I will faint. And also! A couple times when that’s happened I’ve literally popped my pants! Which only adds to the fear of not being around a toilet! I ended up going to a doctor about the bowel issues and was told I probably just had food poisoning and am fine. But the problem is that my anxiety has not ended and I keep getting these bouts of extreme anxiety and I don’t know what to do. Especially when I am expected to show up for work next week where I have to drive on the highway, early in the morning. Honestly I’m really scared and I don’t know what to do. Any help would be much appreciated.

TLDR: Since moving back home from university, I’ve been having severe anxiety episodes, especially in the mornings, I get nauseous, my heart races, and I sometimes faint or lose control of my bowels. I don’t know how to manage this and I need some advice

So basically its my bday and im abt to have a panic attack and i need help. like actual tips btw not go for a walk or deep breathes.