u/cringeyobama

I know yawning repeatedly is anxiety but the pressure tho am afraid it'll peak , the pressure is nothing like any other pressure I've experienced , it's accompanied by sudden full scalp tension , heavy sleepiness sensation , heavy scalp and forehead , it only occur when yawning state peaks , is this normal

I've wasted so much time and energy trying to figure every small symptom, most of the time chatgpt ends up mentioning critical conditions then I get stuck in a loop of despair , and no it wasn't true at all am completely healthy , I think deleting ai chats is the first step of recovery , anyways that's about it.

I hate it so much I would choose depression over it anytime any day , I usually could calm my self but now no matter what I do I can't calm down , am always afraid and always stressed , always felt like I was dying because of my stress symptoms , anxiety symptoms can mimic the most severe and dangerous health conditions, making me constantly feeling like am having a stroke, seizure, brain tumor , heart attack , ..etc you call it , it is just not fun , distracting myself could make me better but I return to the same stress eventually , i now developed dying early thoughts , imagining my funeral and how everyone would react to it , because my fears of dying with a medical condition , I hate medications they harm more than they cure , I can't talk to anyone because he'd think am overreacting , and I don't want to see a therapist because i don't want to trouble my mom .

I personally don't have any am good with everyone I know , I try my best to avoid conflict I prioritize my peace over stress .

Been feeling huge urges lately but I already know it's a waste of time , disappointing God is the last thing I want to do , I can do this I just need to ignore my thoughts .

I've been addicted to it since 2017 , but lately I've been in a quiting returning cycle , I enjoy no other video game , I used to like challenging myself against other players for so many hours , ended up losing and not achieving anything , Time seemed to pass so fast when Playing that game , it messes with my mood , my temper , scholarship , it's just a waste of time , I don't regret deleting the game I would like to delete my account but the only thing stoping me is the fact that I spent so much money on it.