Boyfriend going on vacation for 12 days
My boyfriend is going on a vacation for 12 days and I’m not being selfish at all just a little sad since I’ve been going through a lot this summer and especially this week. I had to cut off a chunk of my friends because they’ve been talking behind my back and being super fake on top of it all so I can’t talk to them. Family problems have been a lot lately my parents did attempt to divorce and both of them are telling me their problems. I had to cut contact with my closest sister because she’s been a bad person lately, and my everyone and my job has been treating me very badly for no reason at all. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong and I’m sure people hate to see me working on myself but I am criticized for everything. What I’m trying to get at is my boyfriend is the only one who has made me feel so safe and loved through it all and I don’t try to trauma dump him all the time even if he doesn’t mind but I’m scared something will happen again and I’ll have nobody at all to talk to. I’ve been crying at work lots and at night too. We usually call at night so I’m distracted but my anxiety increases at night a lot. I’ve tried texting a few helplines and they start to sound kinda like an automated response now which kind of sucks. Just thought I’d share just in case anyone else feels the same. I’ve never been this far apart from him so I just need to distract myself and do the things I love. I’m working for 8 out of the 12 days he’s gone so that will pass time a lot I’m sure. My anxiety has been super bad lately just with everything going on and my boyfriend leaving makes me feel a little more anxious now just because at the end of the day I don’t use him for my anxiety or to cry to, I just love that he’s there and that’s truly all I need. Thanks for listening.