Is anyone else just having meltdowns?
I am pretty young imo, I am 31 reversed. No job, no partner and still on summer break. But in my area the power is out and wifi isnt great at all. So now all I have to work with is my thoughts. And family.
But, a few days before the wifi started acting up, my fyp was js full of things like free Palestine videos, free Congo videos, Afghanistan women being beat, people dying, and donation videos. I dont feel bad bc I cant do anything, bc ik no matter what, nb can really do anything abr whats happening in those countires/since it's mainly gov controlled and they wont listen to anyb.
I feel awful bc its happening in the first place. *not bragging* but I live in a pretty good condition, non divorced parents, some friends, and yk ig middle class. So seeing people like this makes me sob and cey all day long bc I feel I should be in their shoes.
I ask my family what I should do and they say I need to pray. I wanna pray but im upset at god hc he doesnt help the people who need it. I am losing my faith and I donr wanna lose it bc idk I feel like God exists but he is mean ig? Idk, everytime I pray wrv I pray for comes true, but why doesnt it come true for others?
Idk Im js so jealous of ppl who are js like non political amd religious. Its like lide is so easy for them, they can pray without thinking God foesnt exist, and they don't worry about whats going on in the world
An I the only one thinking rhis?