Feel average and like I'm just contributing to overpopulation
So Im 18(F) and this is the season for uni applications and stuff. I'm doing design and basically you need to create a portfolio with your creative work and stuff. Showcase any animations, art or product design and all that stuff. And I thought my portfolio was pretty good and I had a shot at the good universities. But for reference and to checkout what other students are doing I had a look at a subreddit at portfolios of other students applying to the same unis. And every single one I saw, I just sunk more and more. At that moment I felt so small and lesser. I saw a few of my friends work offline and I just felt inferior and like I have no chance and anxious.
It's not just for this but I generally feel like theres no space for me. Like every field has so many talented worthy people entering. Every field has SO MANY people entering. Any niche you find its just filled with people.
I just feel like im getting stuffed into an already full bus of people going to the same place. It just feels like I contribute nothing in any space and am mediocre everywhere. Theres nothing really special about me I dont have any talents, basically theres just nothing im above average at. Theres nothing Im super passionate about and nothing im extraordinary at. Its not like I'm an extreme hard worker either.
Basically It just feels like theres no point or space for me. Like every space is filled with way more talented and hardworking people and Artificial intelligent. In fact, forget talented and hardworking, there are just so many people at my level or above who are going and I feel like just another npc who thinks they're important like everyone else, just trying not to drown while following everyone in the waves, And i know all the generic motivation advice and stuff but I'm sick of it. People will say stuff like, if that one person hadn't tried to climb mount everest he wouldnt have made history but what about the other 20 people who tried to climb mount everest and never came back? IDK man it just feels like theres no point in even trying because theres so many people everywhere.
I just feel like another coca cola can in an overflowing wastebin. A coca cola can amongst millions of other coca cola who are thinking the exact same thing, that they're different and they're valuable.