Hi. My name is Laura, F and 19. Let's call my cousin Penelope, F and also 19.
Penelope is my first cousin, mother side. I always play with her back when both of us were 8 until 13 years old. I am older than her since we are 6 days apart. She used to live in a city because of her parents, but sometimes auntie would visit and that's when she brought my cousin here in the province. She was the type of girl you'd wanna hang out with because of her cheerful personality. But when we were younger, she would always copy me and whatever I do that interests her. My mother would tell me that Pen is just looking up to me, like I'm her 'idol' (yes, she did say that) and I get it, I would also copy the person I'm close with and depend on but it was a little much. Whenever I play this one game, Pen would download it and play without telling me. And when I painted my nails, do makeup, wear dresses since I love them, and even my favorite things she will tell me she also likes them and have them in her inventory. Knowing the kind of person I am, it just makes me think she doesn't have any creativity. I'm sorry.
I love her with half of my heart but why is she doing things she'd know I hate? Another thing, she was adventurous and rebellious when we were young, since I was older I had the responsibility of taking care of her and monitor her whenever we go out to play. And bruh she would always invite me to do reckless things together. In the end I always get the blame even if I was telling the truth. I may be immature for complaining but she got me in trouble because she provoked the neighbor kids.
That resulted to me bullying her. bullying her as in I always argue with her whenever I didn't like what she was doing, and I'd call her names, sometimes even get physical. I was starting to regret what I've done now that I'm older, but no, she hasn't changed at all.
We were 14 years old, studying in the same school and hangout after school. It was bliss for a moment, before I introduced her to my friends. I don't know if I'm being jealous, but she stole my friends. my closest friends. I would cry in my room after they ask to hangout with Pen without me. Its a shallow reason, but was there any reason to even tell me beforehand? I didn't even care, and it sounded like my friends wanted me to go sad or something. Pen even backstabbed me with my friends even though I stopped doing harsh things to her. No, she didn't backstab me about our past, she backstab me by saying I was so immature, and that Pen always acts like the older 'sister' in our relationship.
That broke my heart, because Ive been the one who always take the blame, help her in almost everything, hell, I even bought her expensive stuff because i felt bad.
And whenever she's at fault, she'd make it look like Im in the wrong . She will apologize once (not sincere) and act like nothing happened. Not even trying to fix the issue and just leaving it on me or the people around her.
At times when we're having fun at games or online talking with random people with cams on (you know what Im talking about), if it suddenly involves topics that are controversial/offensive to me of course I'd react, and she'd call me dramatic and whine until I'm the one saying sorry.
And our current issue right now? Is her being a hoe. Im sorry, but she acts like she's desperate for men to notice her. she wants to use omegle and messaging apps all the time so she can look 'cute' and talk to guys. She says she wants male friends, but does flirting have to be included in your conversations? It pisses me off. She even tried stalking my boyfriend. You might think im being 'possessive' or 'protective', but she already had past issues with guys and auntie even wanted me to tell Pen that she should stop once she gets suspicious with the guy. Honestly? I don't care at this point. Its her decision,so if its her decision to talk to dangerous guys because she has 'daddy issues' (even though her dad cares for her) I wouldn't care less.
Worse, she says that she's a 'people pleaser'. But all I see is a narcissistic self proclaimed daddy issue bch. I may not hear her side of the story, but dang you make me want to slap you.
Someone tell me, am I the bad guy here?
And also, how do I improve myself to become better than her?
And no I dont want comments saying “Move on” or stuff like that. I am really suffering here.
(Ps. This story is from my friend, she doesn't want to post this in her main account)