Need advice on how to deal with other ships
Hello, I’d like to start off by saying I’m not sure if this counts as yumeshipping or not. I’m actually a straight guy but I’m like really attached to Varka from genshin. I figured this would be a good place to ask without getting judged
Anyway this is my first time being this attached to a character and being actually upset and affected by their ships. Some of his ships I don’t mind, I even have some favorites where he’s shipped with random characters but the one I currently dislike the most is with a character who also happens to be one of his best supports, let's call her N
Naturally I got N, because I want the best for him, but now I have to run them in a team together. And I know this is overreacting but I get this annoying sinking feeling in my chest whenever I use them together. It’s really stupid I know it’s just a bunch of pixels but yeah
I was thinking about it earlier and realized that I actually do kind of ship him with a (male) character (let’s call him C), and that ship doesn’t bother me at all the way the others do. Been trying to figure out why, and use that feeling of not being bothered for the other ships but it’s not working
I guess the ship with C is a special case. I'm just so irrationally upset by running him with N, that I tried to see him from a mlm angle and engage in ship content with other male characters but honestly it doesn't help, haha. Which is why I’d like advice on how this situation. I’m afraid that this problem is taking away the enjoyment of the game.
Edit: something else I want to add...you know how shippers are, they analyze stuff and point out details fitting their ship. Which is fine! My issue is that my brain interprets it as canon and that kinda makes me upset when it comes to him