u/Astraea-Nyx

After literally 20 years of doctors dismissing me as a hysterical woman in a variety of ways, I just got my official POTS diagnosis yesterday. (Yay? Condolences to me? All of the above?)

I'm going to start on 5mg ivabradine twice daily, as soon as the prior authorization goes through with my insurance. I'm a bit nervous -- I know a lot of you can relate to the fear of making things worse -- but mostly crossing my fingers so hard. If it can help even 10% with this awful fatigue and inability to exert myself, it'll change my life entirely.

I'm concerned though because my heart rate often drops quite low (50s) when I'm sleeping. In theory I'm meant to be taking this 12ish hours apart, right? My heart rate typically only does the tachycardic thing when I'm upright, around the 140-160bpm range.

Does anyone else have this issue and take ivabradine? Is that something to worry about? (I didn't quite get the chance to ask my cardiologist. I often forget to ask in the pressure of the moment and then they're so busy/hard to get hold of.)

Other than that, any tips or things to watch out for when starting this med? Thanks in advance! ❤️

Update for this post.

So I focused in the immediate short term on legal support/victory magic rather than banishment. I succeeded in getting a temporary restraining order, and the hearing for that is still pending. The police have arrested him for communication of threats, and his girlfriend for assault with a deadly weapon. (She tried to hit me with her car a few days after his threat.) The criminal trials are still pending.

We are now in somewhat of a down period of time while we await these court dates. His lawyer is trying to get me to ask the DA to drop the criminal charges in exchange for his agreeing to the restraining order, but I have no intention of dropping the charges -- his conviction and subsequent probation will protect me far better than the restraining order.

I may, however, agree to drop the charges against him and his girlfriend if they move out of my neighborhood. I have yet to propose this to them via my lawyer, as I'm still working on exactly how I want to pursue the matter.

So, it is time for that banishing magic -- I firmly believe that magic only works if you give it real-world avenues through which to flow. I'd like to have the magic in progress or completed before I offer them this option.

SO! I have come back asking for some more help.

I've settled on a spell adapted from Judika Illes's book, which involves lost and away oil, the target's name on a paper, folded/sealed/buried, watered with war water for 13 days, then dug up and burned.

I have everything I need for my version of the spell. What I can't figure out is where to bury the paper. Burying it on his property makes the most sense, but I'm unwilling to risk that (both for my safety, and for legal reasons--a trespassing charge would certainly weaken my position). Given that I need to water it every day and dig it back up, access is key. But burying it on my property also doesn't seem quite right, given the vitriolic ingredients. I'm currently thinking maybe at the edge of my property, just beside the street that divides our properties. Maybe even dug in a triangle/arrow hole pointing toward his house.

Any advice from you experienced witches out there?