My years of being online have been... Interesting
"I've done worse for less for the worst people"
I say this to everyone who judges me on why I a the way that i am currently.
As someone who never got parents who had the time or capacity to understand you as a person, it really hurts
Being neurodivergent really stunted my emotional learning; i still dont know how feelings work and how friendships are built.
I just treat everyone as a stranger with feelings.
I tend to roleplay as a coping mechanism and have been since i was a kid; simply just talking to myself and stuff.
Then I fell into reddit's nsfw side and well... It was a pretty traumatizing 4 years of being here... I was still a minor but i was simply finding a purpose (to car for someone) and possibly finding people who cared enough to take me in.
I wasted my heart on the people who saw roleplays as a fantasy not something to cope.
Now comes today. Emotionally blind, probably have stockholm syndrome and attachment issues.
I feel like a slut but at this point even that doesn't get me the attention i crave- hell I don't even remember what I want anymore, my comfort zone has been fetishized.
Still craving and looking for someone who will treat me like a kid again... Teach me how to be innocent and how to understand emotions.
I'm 18 now and it still hurts to see how far I've fallen.
If anyone wants to talk to me feel free to comment or dm honestly i need better "friends" lmao