Struggling, need some help
Back here again to ask for some help, recently I was off my antipsychotic for 7 days partially because of my irresponsibility but also because of insurance issues and in that time I noticed I’ve been overly suicidal but weirdly extremely irritable and angry which I’ve never really been. Fast forward to now I’m 2 days on my AP again but the irritability and anger seems to be getting uncontrollable and I don’t know what to do, I acted out on my therapist somewhat and they gave me the typical run down for at risk patients and they told me I should admit myself if I can’t handle it anymore, which I can’t, but I do not want to go back because I’m afraid I’ll most likely have altercations with the caretakers which will make me stay longer, I can’t afford to not go to work. I’ve been weighing out the option of just dropping all the psych help but maybe that’s the SI talking I don’t know either way I don’t want meds or help, can I just do this myself, usually strong emotions Passover time because this time it’s anger and depression consistently happening it’s like a switch flipping and it’s unbearable what do I do?
What would the psych ward do?
Pls help