Not sure if looking for advice, words of encouragement or just somewhere to express my frustration, but just need it out of my head.
For some background, I am not currently diagnosed, I will hopefully start the process soon to do so, but my doctor recently prescribed Vyvanse just to see how much of a difference it would make for the time being.
As the title explains, partner has tested me recently about a conversation we had had on the phone yesterday. They had said they bought some more books to put on their shelf. I had responded with, "You bought more books?". The response from them was, "Yes, I told you this yesterday." Which was the standard, "Oh." from me as this is not the first time I don't remember something. But this time, they asked, "What kind of books did I buy?", which I paused at the question.
I didn't really question them doing this, so I just played along. After about two guesses, I was able to get it right. Which in all honesty, if not shamefully was kinda proud of remembering since I do struggle with remembering a lot. I thought they would be glad I remembered too,,, but instead I got a follow up question of what THEME the book had. Which... is where it bothered me.
Being able to recall information, especially through a phone call which we talked for over an HOUR about anything and everything. And them KNOWING my memory sucks dick. Proceeds to quiz me and try to prove something that I'm already ashamed of having issues/struggles with just makes me feel like something is wrong with me.
I know they're just as frustrated as I am about my shit for dick memory, but getting a reminder isn’t exactly helpful in that regard either.
Also, to make matters worse, it totally doesn't help that they have a speech impediment cause lord fucking help me with my auditory processing issues 😭