Support, tips, and “positives” are appreciated, this is going to be a bit of a vent. I’m sorry I have to do it here, I have nowhere else that could be quite as helpful.
So I’ve recently realised that I’ve never been able to visualise stuff. Soon after I figured out that I don’t hear anything in my head unless I focus and do literally nothing else… I’ve always been a bit depressed but this has just made it worse somehow. I’m jealous of all my friends who claim to be able to visualise everything perfectly, or get confused when I say I can’t see something in my head or hear myself think. It’s making me feel like everything about me is wrong and that my head is just against me.
I’ve also recently been getting into Tulpamancy, and I’m scared that my differences are making it impossible for me to form a Tulpa.
I’m afraid and I hate myself.