u/Automatic-Emu-611

I've been lonely all my life and I've always had a hard time keeping any kind of relationship. I'm a 30 year-old guy now and I've never been in a real relationship, my best friend broke our relationship a couple of months ago (on my birthday) and now I feel my only other friend pulling away from me. I feel like my insides are rotting and something is so fundamentally wrong with me that I don't deserve real connection. I don't know what to do with my life and I'm not sure I wanna keep going.