I’m 5’0 female btw.
And between March 25th & April 27th, when I put on 6 lbs while I stopped dieting, was that possibly water weight?
Last night I blew up at my boyfriend over a comment he made. So, he walked in the room while I was watching my show & I told him the girl on trial was being accused of axe murdering someone and that she hit the victim 41 times. He immediately scoffed and was like “she’s innocent” I say “why” (also spoiler alert she did do it) but anyways he said “because she’s so tiny, she’s not swinging an axe that many time” then I said, “do you think I could do it? Swing the axe 41 times?” And he just automatically “yeah” and it genuinely enraged me into that moment. In my brain that was him calling me fat. Also, the girl in the show was literally the same size as me.
Just some other random things he’s said over the years that have fueled this insecurity.
He randomly said something about me being 50 lbs lighter than him. I asked him how much he weighed, already knowing the answer. He said 210. I said “so you think I weight 160 lbs?” He said yeah, if I had to guess. MIND YOU he’s seen me on a scale before. A whole meltdown ensued. 160 lbs isn’t bad.. but I am 5’0 tall and 115 lbs
He’s called multiple of our (girl) friends “little” and/or “tiny” WHILE they’re bigger than me. Again not bashing any size or type but one friend literally 5’5 and 180 lbs he called her tiny while in the same night said (in front of friends) he doesn’t struggle “MUCH” to pick me up because I’m not “THAT BIG” … again I’m literally 5’0 ..115 lbs … and this man is 6’2, 210.. no reason to even fucking say that and yes, he was serious.
He can eat all day non stop but if I eat something sweet after a meal he says I’m eating like a linebacker.
I won’t even lie sometimes I have straight up asked him if he thinks I’m skinny just bc I hear him call people who are bigger than me that … and he has never once said that about me. He says “you’re not skinny, but you’re not fat” whenever I ask.
I’m starting to feel like either I’m going crazy/ paranoid or he is straight up trying to hurt me without flat out being mean to me.