Lonely and struggling
I have a gf of 5 years and currently we both agreed that the relationship is not really working out. She wanted to break up with me because she doesn't want to feel guilty all the time for not giving time or having the thought that someone is always waiting on her. I did not agree but I'm really struggling. Right now we can only do vc once a week or two if we're lucky. She can't reply or update as much as I do because she's busy and always tired with work and other responsibilities. I try to understand but sometimes I can't really wrap my head around how hard it is to send a single text.
I also recently opened up if I could talk with other people just to make friends. I sent her a screenshot of threads here on reddit. In my mind I was just sharing what I read. She did not reply for more than a day and eventually told me that she's not comfortable. She thinks I'm looking for another person to date.
She doesn't want to make plans with me as well because she thinks it's useless. She's not really sure about her future because she might migrate abroad. She's also not open with her family yet. I've already introduced her to my family and friends. This is not a big deal with my because I don't want to pressure her with coming out. But recently she's also saying it's another reason why she wants to break up because she feels guilty. She said it isn't fair with me.
I always say no but lately I've been thinking if I'm just making it hard for the both of us. I still don't want to break up. I told her I want to hold on as long as I can.
I just wanted to get this off my chest.