I want to cut off my family.
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I am 19 years old. And I still live with my mom but now I don't want to live on her anymore I don't want to live with any of my family anymore I don't want to see their face I don't want to hear them talk I want nothing to do with them anymore. It's not because I'm trying to be an asshole it's because I never fully felt respected by any of them. When I was a kid it seems like my mom never fully respected me and my dad fully hated me, my cousins always acting like they were better than me and always pushed me around and acted like I was stupid and my grandma always talks behind my back spreads my business to everyone she still does that to this day. And now when I turned 18 they all wanted to start to be nice to me again. I'm just done with there crap. They say that they love me but I never fully felt their love all I felt was just hate for them. I told him I want to become a movie director but it seems like they just don't believe in me. They actually make me want to kill myself. It seems like anything I do they just have a problem with it. I just don't understand why they're so angry with me just for existing. But at this point I just don't care anymore I'm just done with them done with your fake smiles done with their judgment done with their anger. I'm done with everything. What should I do?..