It's a shame but now I finally understand this parable, and the feeling of envy is not the one to arise, it is mostly one of inadequacy and of loss.
I have a half-brother who is always in trouble, sadly he's older than me so not exactly like in the parable. I've got other siblings from both my parents cause I'm from my parents second marriage and they are older and have their families but every time they have problems, they come to our parents for money and other solutions. It's been difficult the last years cause my parents were middle aged when I was born so when I became an adult they started to need someone to take care of them and their health. I have lived with them all my adult (not so long life, I'm in my late 20's) but lately my maternal half-brother has been asking for a lot of money from all the family, he's buried in debts and his wife and her children just keep adding to the debt.
My job is not one that pays a lot but I have been helping my parents since the moment I could, I mean ofc I live here so I need to contribute with something. However when my brother began asking for money I tried to help so that my mom wasn't so anxious about the situation, but then he borrowed money from my father and then from my mother, and it was not a small sum. Ofc he didn't pay so I had to start paying that debt myself because these were their savings,I thought it was over but then he appears again with all his "family" telling a sob story about the horrible ghost in their apartment and how much they need to move and "...would you please let us stay here with you" or please lend me a little money more, pretty please it's the last time I swear... needless to say my dear mom goes and gets her retirement funds and covers his debts once again.
And this is when I begin cursing my life choices and of course my brother and his life choices...I really don't know what to do just that I feel small and insignificant, angry with my parents that always treat my siblings like small children and so dissapointed, frustrated, defeated I don't know choose whatever synonim you want, it applies.
If this is what that sibling felt in the parable from the bible I really feel for him.