Got my first Packer but scared to wear it in public
Hi there
So i dont know....iam closeted trans man starting to build s secret life behind a curtain. Im out as non binary so at least i can wear binders and masc clothing but thats it. I have a family a own company, public visibility....i bought my first Packer got it in the mail and its so perfect love it, it feels so good and makes me emotional and euforic which also makes me sad and angry for being trans in the first place (yeah i know not the correct respons just started therapie so 🤷)
I told my two very close queer friends i am trans in a i dont know spurt of impulsive moment...i am celebrating my birthday with them next week in public i reaaaallyyy want to go as me, the male me the real one with packer and all but im just .. scared. Scared people will notice in a bad way, scared i will run into people i know and have to explain...just i dont know :(
I cant change at home there is my family so i have to bring it in a bag and change at the toilet in train station rich makes me feel dirty? I dont know... Maybe i should abondon the whole idea for know and work on me?
Any advice?