Just wanted to use this selfie Sunday to share how far I’ve come since last year. 😊 I’m now 2 months on T and am starting to see some effects of it on my body in terms of muscle, too. I‘m still glad I built a solid base before starting T though.
I'm 47" 42" breast and under bust, 59" height, but here's the thing, my chest was a DDD before starting t a few years back. Binders that are SUPPOSED to fit me in this size category, 4x-5x for most reputable companies, well they are altogether far too big for me. I don't experience compression.
I'm quickly losing weight, finally, and I'm down 20 lbs since early August. So now I'm facing a new problem where binders that compress and support enough have such tiny chests. They are not built for people like me with enormous breasts. They compress to the front, it's true, but everything comes spilling out from the sides and I get a massive ball of adipose tumor in front of my armpits. Binders that compress and support me are missing about 4-6 inches of fabric around the side to hug my body.
I'm out of options here. Fluxion binders that fit are too narrow. I have some tape but I don't see how I can put tape on while I'm binding. Tape also does not hold as I have a substantial amount of weight and mass so it cannot be a solo endeavor. I've tried so many times to make it work.
I feel rather lost. I'm in a category of feminine envy that puts my masculine self at a disproportionate disadvantage to adequate gender affirming care.
The attached picture demonstrates a 3x binder that is too large for me. You can see the formation of the armpit tumor taking hold. It's too large as typical day to day activities cause me to slip down and out. Just going shopping for groceries warrants adjustment. Going down to a 2x will most likely compress enough, but the chest will become more narrow in the process and cause more adipose to spill out the side like my sport binder that I don't have a picture of on me right now, but know that I keep slipping UPWARDS while working out because the chest is so narrow.
I feel like a total freak because of this. If there are solutions out there for me, especially with how quickly I'm losing weight, I can't find them. I just want people to look at my face, call me sir on assumption, not look at my chest and height and call me ma'am, even if both are incorrect I present masculine and would rather that assumption be made as it's the thing I put so much effort into only for it to be completely shat upon by my GIGANTIC chest. I can't splurge on a custom binder if such a thing exists, I'd need to be in person with the tailor to get a good fit, unless they're willing to do free revisions as I keep losing weight.
I feel like a whacky experiment without someone to provide support.
Hubby took me shopping because I have no gender neutral/masculine warm weather clothes... since my egg cracked this spring he has been sort of guiding me, the most fun of which being that all the sudden after 16 years of being together he wants to dress me and picks out clothes for me ❤️
Some very fun neo-folkloristic madness going on in Belgium.
I am losing hope about ever being able to be on hormones or afford surgery. I am from the lower middle class, homeless with many imparting mental disorders and learning disabilities. The most I have ever had in savings when I worked a high paying job was $3000 after working the job 3 months. Unfortunately keeping a job is extremely difficult and there is no affordable insurance at the moment, but fortunately a partner with a car currently living the same conditions just without being trans. Most days in order for me to cope I try to as AFAB transmasc Androgyne, tap into my feminine side even though I am definitely more masc. I don't know how much time left I have in this world, but for those that believe in next lifetimes, perhaps ill have luck in the next lifetime to reach my goals ❤️
Hey everyone! I turned 29 today. It was a terrible first "out as trans" pride but I'm trying to remain positive. I think I managed to get some lovely photos. I spotted three open transmascs in a crowd of thousands of people, so I'm a little bit dejected. But that's my country for you.
I'd like to think I learned a lot from this experience. And that I didn't look too bad doing it, considering we marched 3km.
Sorry I posted a selfie on the wrong day. But here it is on the right day. I'll be 32 in December. Been on T since 2022 so 4 years. I know my facial hair needs work but I'm upping my dose of T to 0.5 in the following weeks since my new doc says my original dose of 0.3 was odd.
Finally enjoying some more fall weather so I can bust out the hoodies!
A bit too tuckered out to do too big of a life update today.
I've been working on flipping my sleep schedule from early mornings to nights since Wednesday.
I start my new job tomorrow! Same type of job (janitorial), just a different company with better hours (10 hrs/day, 4 day work week) and better pay. I'll be working from 4:30pm to 3am (thus all the sleep training I've done this weekend). Though I have to go in at 9am Monday and Tuesday for training. X.x
I went back to my old barber after going to great clips for awhile. I was avoiding my old neighborhood due to my old neighbors threatening me so badly I had to move late 2024 (it's a whole thing), but apparently my barber moved to a new location so I was able to go back!
Good vibes for Romie, pls. She has to go to the vet this Friday. Just for updated vaccinations/annual check up. But she gets really stressed out on car rides so it's never a good time...
I am really happy that I finally find one that match me and don’t need to worry too much for going to the men’s room. I got heimori STP one this week and it is absolutely stunning with all the details it had and very easy to use for my anatomy. It has a very broad no-spill lips, I didn’t even leak by the first time using it. I was thinking about posting my review more focus on how it helps me with my dysphoria in r/transmascdick but people there seems to more likely focus on how the packer works and how’s the function. Anyway, congratulations to myself and as someone who might never be able to have surgery, this is the best I could find to reduce a bit of my dysphoria. And the best birthday gift ever.
After 8 years on T, I've stopped passing. I'm getting she/her'd to my face daily. People glare at me with hostility and are unfriendly to me in public. I probably look like a woman with a beard.
Last year I had cancer and went on chemo, where I gained 20 lb. This has affected my body shape and face shape.
I've tried to lose weight but nothing works. I just don't seem to burn fat. I'm unable to exercise due to ME/CFS, so I'm limited to diet changes. I already eat healthy.
This is kind of my nightmare. Advice welcome.
Surgeon= Dr. Bram Kaufman in Cleveland OH (through metrohealth)
Cost: about 1,200 (Medicare basically covered everything but the liposuction)
Revisions needed: dog ear removal
If I have any advice- make sure you find proper arm stretching exercises and do then AS SOON AS YOU'RE ABLE.
I relied on t-rex arms for too long, and now when i hold something up (for example my coffee cup while on a walk) in my right arm for too long, it feels like i have a pinched nerve. X.x
** i seem to have been mistaken. The third pic is actually at 7 weeks post op, rather than a year. I apologize for any confusion!
I'm super tired lol. I also can't wait to get back on minoxodil as my facial hair was coming in so well..though here I am post shave baby face heh. Never thought this day would come but here I am! 33 and tired but finally feel right in my body.