u/fagrat69

It’s been maybe 5 years since my relapse.

My work life has been so stressful lately. My partner’s work life has been to. He doesn’t take his stress out on me but I can tell when he’s stressed and it makes me sad, so it’s added to everything else going on that has been triggering.

I started having thoughts of self harm a month or so ago and they’ve come and go. First time in a longgg time I had even considered it, I didn’t recognize my thoughts at first.

I relapsed today after confirming I had self harm tools in my car. I put them in my pocket, took my break at work, relapsed, bandaged myself and went back to work.

I feel like a loser. The worst part of it is that I do feel calmer, it did work. Im so ashamed. I feel horrible.

I got an email (and text) from Verizon today saying a third party had detected some sort of malware on my WiFi network and I needed to contact them. I checked my Verizon account and the security notice says they’ve detected an attack originating from my network.

I tried talking to people via webchat and Verizon wouldn’t disclose when it occurred or on what device. Tried calling them too, and the person I spoke with seemed to be very confused and wasn’t helpful. They suggested I email the team that sent me that original email and I got an automated response saying it’s unlikely they’ll get back to me.

If anyone has any advice please let me know.

My partner (cis m) and I (ftm) have been together for almost a decade now. Our relationship is good, he’s wonderful.

It takes a lot for me to be ok receiving head from him. I really have to be in the headspace for it. He’s great at it (in general our sex life is great!), no complaints. When I can actually relax and clear my mind I love it. I get these really overwhelming feelings of shame and dysphoria most of the time and it makes it hard to be present and enjoy time with him. I don’t get dysphoric from other activities, literally it is just head.

In general I don’t have a lot of dysphoria anymore. I transitioned close to 10 years ago. This is the one piece, I feel, that’s still hanging on.

We were talking about it the other night and he suggested maybe I have some internalized transphobia that making it difficult for me, potentially on top of the dysphoria.

I guess I’m wondering if anyone experiences dysphoria around oral, and how you deal with it?

Edit: just to clarify I do not think dysphoria is the same as internalized transphobia. We were having a very specific discussion about myself and I didn’t include a lot of details about that, i’m sorry if that’s caused any confusion.

I’m sorry, I don’t know what flair is appropriate.

Timeframe: 8/5, around 11pm
Place: Rhode Island Ave between Hollywood and Kenesaw cross streets, in the Daniel’s Park neighborhood of college park. Somewhat close to the MOMs.

I found a deceased black/white tuxedo cat on Rhode Island, it looks like they were hit by a car. They didn’t have any tags/collar on them. I don’t have the capacity to check for chips.

I called the non emergency police bc animal control was closed (that’s what dispatch told me). They said they’d send someone out.

I moved the cat off the road onto the grass so they could be at peace on something softer than the asphalt.

If this is your cat I’m so sorry. I tried to be as gentle as possible when I moved them.

I posted on Nextdoor as well. If anyone wants to post this somewhere useful please do.

EDIT: I got in contact with animal control this morning. They picked up the cat around 11am and confirmed with me the cat has no chip. They noticed the cat’s ear was notched, so the cat is most likely a community feral cat.

I’ve been on T for around 9yrs. I’ve had the changes I wanted to have, I’m happy with my transition.

Lately (maybe the last few months) there have been aspects of my pre-T body that I miss. I miss, mainly, some of how my pre-T body distributed fat.

I’m thinking about taking a few months off T, seeing if my body changes and if I like it. Do yall think that would be okay?

I feel sort of ridiculous asking, but I’m worried (somehow) this will make me less of a man. Or it’ll mean I never really was trans to begin with, although I do firmly feel like I am a man. I’ve talked to my cis partner who says he just wants me to be happy with myself and would support me with whatever I do. I’ve also talked to my mtf friend who said I should do it if I want. I just feel nervous, I don’t know why.

Has anyone else felt like this? I know I’ve read in the past about folks going off T for a bit, but I can’t seem to find those posts. Any advice is appreciated.

I know this is a real long shot but I’ve combed through all my old computers and I can’t find a screenshot I thought I had. I looked through my old tumblr accounts and no luck.

I saw the poem on tumblr, I think. It’s a styled to look like a missed connections forum, similar to Craigslist.

The only lines I remember are the narrator saying a tree caught fire (when the person walked past) and a Buick lasabre caught fire as well.

I remember it being so popular on tumblr, I saw it everywhere for weeks.

Will anything bad happen if I just leave the babies on the mother plant?

Maybe 6 months ago my plant started giving me babies. At first I was delighted. I thought surely this means she’s growing well, that I’ve done a good job raising her.

She won’t stop. I’m out of friends I can give them to. I’m considering calling my physical therapy office and seeing if they want any, I’m scraping the bottom of the barrel of socially acceptable people to offer plants to. It’s giving me anxiety. It feels almost like a curse.

She just put out another little baby stalk. Can she just keep them attached to her? Will it cause her harm?

I’m completely sure this has been asked before, the search function has been sort of funky for me lately.

A few months ago I got my daith pierced.

I’ve always worn earbuds and I never minded just having one in. Lately my anxiety has been through the roof and I’d like to be able to block out noise haha.

Does anyone have over ear headphones that are comfy for you? Ideally ones that are Bluetooth compatible.

Thanks!

I can’t remember who shared this advice with me but it comes in handy so frequently so I thought I’d share!

I had a client come in today with a metal butterfly back stuck in their ear, the post/front was already removed so it was just the backing free floating in his lobe. The back of the channel was still open and the jewelry was visible.

I used the tip of an 18g taper to rotate the back in the lobe and then clicked the taper into the part of the butterfly back that clicks onto the post. Once the taper was really securely in the butterfly back I just turned it sideways and bam it slid right out of the channel. I used very little pressure. The client said they experienced minimal pain.

I wish I remembered who shared this technique with me because I owe them my entire life at this point, I’ve been doing this for years.

Howdy

I got 2 cuttings from marketplace maybe a year ago, I was able to pot them maaaaybe 6 months ago. They took a very, very long time to put out roots but they’re happy in soil now.

I cut one of the vines to prop it the other day. I know from experience it takes a mondo long time for the props to root.

I’m wondering if there’s anything I can do to help the rooted portion put out any new growth? I just want her to feel pretty again.

I normally lowish dose fertilizer when I water, and she gets ~12 hrs under a grow light.

Thanks so much!

Passing trans people are often trans medicalist and never advocate for the trans community. They do political damage (and psychic damage) to the trans community by just existing and I hate seeing them.

/uj this is a summary of a reel I saw on IG idk idk