u/Available-Edge5807 — reddlx

Hi, so I have a problem. I was raised to be a real man, so basicly I was tought to hate myself for feeling like i feel (real 60”s upbringing like my father got before me). I was born in the 90s. Was tought to avoid anything feminin and it was also almost criminal to to act in a feminin matter, to cry or show weekness. Back then the ultimate nono was beeing gay, but i guess being trans would had be even a bigger sin if known.
Have lived my life asking the same question at every decission, what can I do to make others belive I am a true man.
I have come to accept my self, feel ashamed for being me less for every day that goes by.
So the question:
I have been on hrt for one year, and would like to do the final step of starting to live as a woman. I have not in the past year tried makeup or actual womens clothing, becouse I am afraid of looking like a man in a dress, it would kill me to know that I wont pass as a woman.
What do you think, if I make the switch, will I eventually be seen as a woman? And could i live a normal life as a woman and not as a freak like my family has said. In the pictures no makeup. Have also been planning ffs brow and nose.

Would also love hearing about your stories of learning to accept your selfs?