I 32F went from being controlled by my sons father to being controlled by his mum instead.
back story- so i have made mistakes as a parent but i always tried my best for my son.
when he was 9 his nan took him from me (for a month) so i could sort out my mental health. but in this time i spiralled and attempted s4icide twice. the nan then rufused to allow me to see my son or talk to him.
its been almost 3 years now and she controls everything i do. i have to ask permission to go to the shop or do go out in general. i have to prove to her im up in the morning and not allowed to talk to anyone.
me and my family are astranged but i recently got back in contact with my dad and him and my step mum have said i need to report the nan for abuse.
the probem is im scared of the consequences but i also cannot live like this anymore. i have been a puppet for the last 10 years. having to ask permission to do things even though im a grown woman. its been drummed in my head that i deserve this and although i hadnt spoken to my dad in 10 years he and his wife are willin to help me through this and fight to get my son back and my life back.
the issue is im scared i feel like a horrible person because she's brought my son up for the last 3 years and he is thriving, hes so much happier.
just to add, i am no longer with my sons dad we havent been together for 11 years.
i live on my own and this is not court ordered at all.
FOLLOW UP
im sorry i missed a lot of information out. no guardianship was set up. when it came to schooling she made out she was me but used her information. doctors i have to ring but anything she makes out she is me to be able to do them.
i know eveeyone is just sayig to take him back but its not that simple. i have nowhere to go other than my home and they would come to mine and take him back and or even get the aurthorties involved and report me for abusing my son. i didnt abuse my son but he did witness a lot of aguments and fights between myself and his nan when he was with me. ive tried everything i can to prov im a better person but my past is constantly thrown in my face.