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I just get so overwhelmed by living. There is a terror I have to deeply compartmentalize. At first I thought I was autistic, then I thought ocd, I know I have bpd, but dpdr seems more accurate. Reality feels like the giant oppressive anvil that’s been dropped on me. What ever allows people to just get on with their day I don’t have that in my brain- just this terror about reality. Something evil in people in myself and underneath the world.

A lot of progressive types will say we should get rid of the death penalty but then start licking their chops when it comes to putting billionaires or the global 1% to the guillotines. Not a complete pacifist myself, I’m vegan, guess Im pacifist curious.

I want peace in the world but it seems having a nuke is the only way to keep America from fucking with you.

Those early loud messages idk just feels weird. Like I’m permanently dissociated from it. Don’t know how to make my own sexuality less strange to me