u/Aveingit

16m, need new music to listen to if anyone wants to recommend anything or just people to talk to since I'm lonely.

Ever since I haven't had contact with my groomer my life has been genuinely horrible, I haven't been able to look at friendships or relationships the same way since then, I haven't been able to eat properly, my motivation for school is down the drain and there's been a lot more thoughts about self harm, I haven't thought about it this much since my dad passed, almost nothing else has ruined my life this much

Someone said that I might be feeling alone due to lack of intimacy and I think they're right, but I think it's my groomers intimacy I missed rather, my life feels like nothing without them, every day feels the same, nothing I do feels enjoyable anymore and all the things they liked about me I feel are the worst parts about me now

It's been about half a year since I got groomed, I can't stop thinking about them and how much I miss them, it makes me nauseous honestly, how close I was to them and how often we'd text, now I feel lonely even if I have friends, this constant feeling of loneliness is draining