Dissociative amnesia
I can't tell if I'm going crazy or have dissociative amnesia, I've looked at all the categories and my memory issues fit into none of them, my amnesia isn't selective and I can make new memories but my memory in general is so distorted, this probably doesn't make sense so I'm gonna expand
I think around last year I realised I couldn't remember my childhood and did some research and figured I had something called dissociative amnesia, I'm pretty sure my memory has been getting worse ever since then and I've been aware of this because of research, I've reached the point where I don't understand my memory,
I can only exist in the present and the past doesn't really exist to me, it just isn't in my mind, I still know kinda what happened throughout my day but that's mainly through what I was thinking, i don't suddenly forget everything as soon as a new moment arrives it just fades out of my mind and I can't fathom thinking about it, my morning today mentally is the same to me as last week's monday morning or last year's or anything else, I don't have a perception of time anymore in that sense either I suppose.
I have almost zero recollection of the last year through memories or honesty anything leading up to last week, I know some events happened because of what my friends have told me and general just thoughts like "I went on holiday" but I have zero memories of said holiday. I have to think hard for a few minutes to try remember anything from yesterday or the day before ect.
I don't really know why I'm posting here but any advice or thoughts would be helpful