I feel so disgusting for what im about to type
Before you read, I am not making this post to be insensitive or belittle anyone who has actually been through this. I have ocd and with that also come intrusive thoughts and groinal sensations, which I cannot control, as ocd purpousfully targets things you don't like.
I am a member of this community on a different account, but for this post, I am using this account. Recently, I have been trying to get better, but have only been getting worse. I feel so gross for this, but I have been having intrusive thoughts about wanting to be r@ped or wanting to be threatened to be r@ped. I liked a post on a certain platform in hopes I would get a detailed private r@pe text. I would like to say I genuinely am so disgusted with myself for even thinking this, but in certain moments I think I find pleasure in it, but I also don't know if I even am because groinal sensations are very common with intrusive thoughts, and these thoughts literally came out of nowhere, and I genuinely don't know how to stop them. I really need advice because I don't want this to continue.