Almost 1 year in Japan, barely any progress made
I always see everyone on here talking about how much they progressed. And lately i've felt really insecure about that.
You see I really really want to learn Japanese but I don't know what's wrong with me, I just can't do it. I've tried to self study all year but everytime I try to study I fall asleep after 5 minutes. Not like "ahah it's boring so i'm sleepy". No I mean no matter what I do, no matter how I study, no matter the materials I use, no matter the time of the day, no matter the place. I fall asleep, deeply asleep, and wake up hours later.
I've tried everything. Tea, coffee, ice cubes, biting my tongue. No matter what I fall asleep.
And when I finally manage to study I feel like it's so hard to really take advantage of that time. I'm self studying with a 0$ budget. Can't afford classes or good books. Can't afford apps or anything like that.
So i've tried immersion while living in Japan. Never using translation apps if I can (I only use them when I need to write something important and long to post or comment online), watching shows in Japanese, playing games in Japanese, trying to read in Japanese. But whenever I try to focus on studying, even while playing video games or reading stuffs I like, I STILL FALL ASLEEP?!
So after almost 1 year i'm maybe at N5 (A language school said I was at N4 but idk).
Am I just the dumbest most lazy person ever or what is even going on?
Sometimes I wonder if it's because of my learning disability? (I'm diagnosed with ADHD and severe dyspraxia) but still I managed to learn English and reach Native level without ever having to study it!
SO WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?
I don't want to come on here just to complain about a lack of progress. I want to ask "does anyone relate to that?" and if you do or have related to that in the past, what are your tricks? How did you get past that.
I mean it. I want to learn. I'm ready to put 3h+ per day into this. It's what i've wanted all along. But if I fall asleep and wake up 4h later every time, It won't get me anywhere.