40/F need advice
Hi! I'm very confused about dating as a women. Here's a fast recap: 45 never had a boyfriend, been on a date, as rejected by 35 guys, never been pursuit, etc. When I see a guy I think it cute, I know from my personal experience that it's one of the following: Gay, girlfriend or only date hot instagram models. I've always wanted to be asked on a date, heck I'd pay for the entire date just to know what it's like....I would like to know what it's like to have my hand held, etc (Yes, it sad but true). I take care of myself (fit, healthy, excellent with money, no debt, etc) but I am never the women who get chosen (if that makes sense). A friend of mine suggested to look overseas because men are more open to dating a mixed race women (black and white) compared to American men who desire (white, asian, or hispanic) Again, this is from my experience. Just wondering if I should toss in the towel and just be happy for other women who get into healthy relationships and I'll be there support them...like supportive friend who (Yes, I'll be upset that I'll never be desired but force myself to accept it) and adopt a kids and be a single mom for life.