Help
I’m honestly tired of everything and my life.
I’m honestly tired of everything. My father has been getting worse over the last few years and there are fights almost every day. He breaks things around the house whenever he drinks like even today my washing got broken and more stuff, few days ago it was out new TV, he has broke 3 tv with his hands to the point they are not even fixable
He hurts my mom, gets hurt as well and he doesn't listen to us at all when he's drunk
Even my 14-year-old brother has started getting involved in fights and getting hurt too and even slapping my dad nd shit
The worst part is that my dad actually loves us and we love him too, but alcohol changes him completely. My mom also gets angry easily, and every small thing turns into another huge fight. My grandparents don’t really help either my mom and brother asked them to come but they refused what can I say even they are old.
I feel suffocated living like this. Sometimes I feel suicidal because of how bad things have become, and I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t even focus on studying because my mind is always messed up from everything happening at home.
I’m crying while typing this because it’s really that bad. I just want my family to go back to how it used to be. Like trust me we are from nice family but not anymore I guess If anyone has gone through something similar, please tell me what I can do to fix this because I can't anymore