Thought I had moved on from my ex-best friend. Now I'm thinking about her all the time after years.
I (22F) have been really stuck on my high school best friend recently. We were very deeply connected my senior year of high school, and incredibly co-dependent. We had a major falling out in spring 2022 large caused by my actions and my mental health issues. That summer, we reconnected a bit, and we talked here and there throughout my first semester of college (went to schools in different states). After that, our only communication was "Happy birthday" texts, which went away eventually too.
I was honestly fine with it. I went from a place of thinking about her every day, often angrily, to thinking about her most days, and eventually got to a place of thinking about her from time to time, mostly fondly. I was, for all intents and purposes, okay with her absence in my life.
All of a sudden, in the last month or so, I've become unable to stop thinking about her. Maybe it's because I'm about to graduate college and I'm at a time of change, or maybe it's just because it's been so long since we've spoken, but I just can't stop thinking about her. The nature of our relationship is so strange now, because although we had a falling out (which I take most accountability for), we were able to rekindle the friendship for a while before it just... dwindled. She went from being my best friend, to an enemy, to a normal (?) friend, to nothing.
I don't know why I'm thinking about her, but I can't stop. Has this happened to anyone else?