I am 24/F been in a 7 year relationship with 24/M but now i think I need time for myself
Hy I am 24/F i have been in a relationship for 7 years now we started off at a very young age. We had problems in our realitionship regarding our future for past seven years because our families are so different and I come from a family were i couldn't have future with him without going against to them, I have been clear from the beginning that there's no future for us because I will never go against my parents i tried to end this relationship so many times but we always finds are way with each other, he is such a great person and he loves me so much the thing is I have never been with anyone else I never been single and now after all this years i feel like I need time for myself (is that selfish of me ) my parents are are looking boy my marriage and all this things is exhausted because it scares me that i would never get time for myself plus I have hide this relationship even now if I am going to meet him if to say 10 lies to my mom it's been 7 years doing all of this and I love him he is really my safe space but now it's feels like i can't do this anymore and I hate myself for thinking that I don't know what to do i want to take stand for myself but at same time I don't want to hurt him.