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I took my first “vacation” since… all of this. The trip home to hug people without telling most of them was not a vacation and my SMX (previous last night away from home) was not a vacation. I drove. I drove myself. I drove myself hundreds of miles alone, like i used to. Packed my car alone like I used to. I almost cancelled because that was gonna be hard… but I didnt. I crossed state lines. I saw the south Atlantic coast (US) for the first time. I allowed myself copious quantities of truck stop diet cola in the big styrofoam cups. And mnms

I checked on the ocean. Still there So am I. So are you.

Since we are sharing funny stories, here is mine from Mother’s Day. I live a few thousand miles away from my adult children and they have been troopers. “Mom moved to a new city and got cancer.” It’s not the cutest meme. We did a FaceTime on Sunday and it was great. We mostly kept to practical things, but then they started getting on me with the role reversal “Mom did you get a new therapist yet?” And my son said “I can ask my therapist if she has referrals. She knows people who are licensed in your state. I will tell her about you.”

“I will tell her about you.”

I’m sorry. What 31-year-old man who has the good grace to be in therapy has a therapist who doesn’t already know everything about his mother.

When his mother has cancer.

So I kept my composure, and I called him on it and he said…

“Oh, she does know a little about you, Mom, but she knows a lot more about Dad.”

Feel like I just won another divorce prize, its been over 10 years

I had an MO follow up today, where her top instruction was “be kind to yourself” and I came home and I’m posting this which tells you everything you need to know about my personality.

Is it accurate to say that there’s nothing more really to be done for the stiffness and joint pain on Letrozole except exercise? I’m already taking Tart Cherry. I got ok to add collagen and I’m doing that now.

I’m such a huge advocate for letting yourself rest during active treatment, and believe me I did. But the post active treatment fatigue is so stubborn. My mental capacity is coming back, and in some ways that’s working against me because if I just sit at my desk for hours, I can get things done and I don’t hurt. And then I get up and try to do a simple chore and I immediately feel stiffness and/or pain, and I don’t get much done before I feel tired again.

I need to get used to the idea of that the only way I’m going to feel ok is if I make myself start moving more even if I’m tired, even if I’m stiff. Even if I’d rather just do smart sitting down things because I can finally do those again.