Im not sure what to think of myself anymore (possible Trans MtF)
Not sure if this is the right place to ask but im gonna do it anyway (throwaway accout) does this mean im not trans
So for a Long time I have been struggling alot with mental health and identity, and I think I have boiled it Down to being Transgender (MtF). The thing is, a while back i think (I say think cause it could be Dream reality confusion or Maybe even a false memory) but I was feeling Down and for some stupid ass reason i decided to create a nsfw gif from a picture i had from my ex girlfriend. From what I recall, if the memory is accurate, then I regretted the creation instantly and deleted it and felt incredible shame Ever since.
I have talked to my parents and a professional about it, and also done legal research to make sure I was in the clear, country laws and all that. Anyway, while im making progress to move on and better myself, I just kinda couldn’t Shake off what I did as anything other than “stupid boy behavior” and “horny guy shit” and I now feel I cant even call myself a Trans woman, since I never heard anything about this regarding women making deepfakes and I feel so guilty about it.
Me and my exes relationship was not good and we never had any intimacy (not at all and excuse though).
But I just cant help but think its a man Only thing I did, or Maybe its the testosterone in me since i havn’t even transitioned yet.
Sorry for the Long rant.
Also, the reason im saying im unsure if its even real is because I know I did go to the websites, but the memory of the deepfake was really blurry and didn’t brother me until the day after, so im not even sure if its a Dream I had and then believed the day after or I just processen it during the night.