I feel like food
I realized life isn't something that NEEDs to be lived. Life is just about whether or not people take you serious or not, or how to protect yourself from these predators. Predators meaning people. PEOPLE just keep taking and taking. What this whole post is about i about me realizing something. a lesson. a lesson about people. People seem to want to think they NEED TO say something insulting to someone to get an reaction. But why do they NEED to do things like that for an reaction? them doing that just clearly puts a insecure label on top of their head. I realize alot of people in my life are insecure. they're considered the "PREDATORS" yet , if anything theyre the food because theyre just using insecurities to survive.
If youre like me, and barely stand up for yourself these insecure people will try you. But when your more dominating you realize "no one fucks with me " because you know how to stand up for yourself. Sometimes i like the feeling that i have no control. its weird. but i dont care. jsut like how i dont care how messy this whole thing sounds. and how none of this makes sense. as long as I KNOW what im talking about thats all that matters.
is it best to be the food for pray? What if being the food is better. "DOMINATING " people arent bothered because of how they act during disrespecting moments. but if anything. if you realize both the food and the predators die in the end why try so hard? in my mind. i realized that at any fucking moment i can choke the hell out of a person, so why try so hard to make an insecure piece of shit stop bothering me. No keep trying me, so i CAN finally get mad and fuck someone up. go ahead i've been wanting this version of myself to get out since 5th grade. the only things im insecure about is my crush not liking me, yet theres clear signs she does . but i dont know why i keep denying them. Yet isnt that a sign. A bad sign to just fucking focus on myself? because people suck ass. And i should NEVER care so deeply about another person not because im hurt and want to EXPECT bad things will happen but because at any moment someone even a trusted best friend can easily give you up for something they've wanted so bad. It could be either to save their mother or you. Even though you KNow if they save their mother you'd understand. but you'd still feel betrayed.
Because no one will really give up SO MUCH FOR YOU, and theres only like 2% of people who actually would.
All of this is a mess. But. I dont care. I wish i knew what im trying to say. ig this is just about how i realize that people act a certain way to get what they want, and they treat people like food to make themselves seem DOMINATING or mature. Theyre not. i can see all their insecurities smothered all over their face. if you stop putting on a face and tried so hard you' realize everyone around you is insecure and youre just the stool so they can think theyre dominating. yet, its funny bec you realize at any moment you can fucking destroy their life and end their little delusions at any time, you realize that the FOOD has the power. Just like how actual food gives energy its what keeps the predator alive. but sometimes food that the predator THINKS will help them, might be their worst night mare. its like thinking a nerd is just pathetic. but that nerd might actually know all yoru insecurities and knows all they can do to control you even if thyre not phyiscallyy stronger than you.
what im trying to say is. stop trying so hard to insult others, youre just making yourself have a insecure label, and respectfully fuck anyone who thinks the can control me.