I hate everyone and everything right now
Everything turns me off. I can't find anything I like to do. I'll try to get into something, anything, and a few minutes in, I'm disgusted with it all. My whole body is literally crawling with irritability. I can barely tolerate my cat right now and he is my everything. I keep having to push him away. I give him a few pets, but I can't give him the usual attention and I quickly tell him to stop bugging me. I was INCREDIBLY fatigued the past two days. Like I couldn't get out of bed almost all day yesterday. My body won't let me sleep completely, but it won't let me be conscious fully either. My period is about five days away. I've been making a ton of mistakes at work. I've just started peri, and it's like a flip switched and now PMDD is a million times worse than it already was. I ate a bunch of sweet snacks, and immediately hated myself afterwards. It wasn't even enjoyable. It was as if I was eating OUT OF IRRITABILITY, if that makes any sense. I'd go for a walk, but I'm in an extremely dysregulated state, living out of a hotel, about to be living out of my car. I'm on the spectrum too, and I have multiple chronic illness. All of these things compound TF out of everything 😭 FUCK. PMDD.