I want to stop
Hi guys,
I, M21, really want to stop watching porn and masturbating. I feel like it degrades my confidence and self esteem so much especially when I’m in a relationship. I have a gf that I love so much, she doesn’t know that I watch porn because I lie about it, she’s asked me before, but I never admit to it because it’s something that I genuinely could never own up to. She’s told me before that she considers watching porn to be cheating, and I honestly agreed with her. The thing is I can’t get myself to stop. It’s gotten beyond just being aroused, it’s part of my daily routine, it’s part of my life.if there are any gaps in my day, I think to fill it in with a few videos and a tug. I am so desensitised.
We used to have issues, sometimes still do, about stimulation during sex and I always play it off as if I don’t know the reason why I don’t cum from a bj, or why sex sometimes just doesn’t make me cum. But I know it’s because of my addiction.
I really want to quit, more than you can think, but it feels genuinely impossible. I can go two days without it, but then on that third day I would do it two times back to back.
I just want some help. I need to, for my own mental health and for the sake of my relationship with my amazing gf