Taking back control of my life
I am a 19yo Male, turning 20 this month. My whole teenage was destructive and I have to take control of my life now. When I was 14, my dad turned seriously ill and we had to shift to my grandmother's house. From childhood, I was loved and cared by my father but shifting there, changed everything. I grew my tense around others, as I didn't felt safe there. I was constantly judged for making a mistake or doing something wrong. As time went by, I became more socially anxious and constantly felt like I was a host to the family.
Throughout my teenage, I was addicted to porn and that addiction fed my social anxiety and lowered self esteem. Every Year compounded this and unfortunately at 16 years of age, I lost my father.
Even if I am struggling financially, emotionally, and with self esteem. I would keep trying to get my life back in control. I have made a plan and consistently executing it. I am focusing on execution rather than trusting my emotions because they are all over the place rn.
This is my first post on Reddit so thank you for ready it this far.