I was hatecrimed and I never felt the same since will I ever return to normal?
I was hatecrimed back in highschool and I feel like it changed me its been 3 years since it happened and I feel like I can never get over the situation I often think about my stalker who stalked me and attacked me despite it being years I feel like she still runs my life I try and feel better but she always pops up at times and the month is happened and the months of the school and the system blaming me still gets to me I feel like I can't move on and I feel like I have this black and white thinking I feel like I will never return to how I was and I often think about if I did things differently it wouldve never happened to me and I often blame myself for it as I was told I flaunt my culture or make it my personality trait and I feel like I can't control my emotions about it and I just feel like I can't get it out my system I also struggle with sleeping at times and I find myself waking up a lot too and if I have a bad dream its usually me chasing her or her chasing me sometimes its just me and her in an empty mall when things are going well I just don't know what to do