Mixed feelings
UPDATE: Ok, so I talked it through with both partners and basically figured out that all I was needing was reassurance. I've never had good relationships, including with my blood family, so my insecurities were masking in bad ways. Thank you for everyone who commented and messaged me!
Ok so I (24F) have been in a poly/mono poly relationship for over a year. CONTEXT: (This is my first consentual poly/ mono poly relationship and it has been the most healthy relationship I have ever had in my life. I am good friends with my guys other girlfriend and her family as well.) I have recently started thinking about asking to go monogamis if it leads to him (32M) and I actually marrying. I don't know what has brought these thoughts on but I also don't want to bring them up to my partner if I have no good reason as to why, mainly because I don't want to cause "issues" if there are none. I guess my main question would have to be is this normal??? My 2 other relationships before were extremely toxic in different ways, one physically and the other emotionally, so I am still figuring out what is normal in relationships and what is not.