Doing a digital detox
I label it as a detox but I really mean I’m making a permanent implementation into my life.
I’ve spent the last year or so fully analyzing every second that I spent online to fully comprehend what about entertainment (media, movies, videos, online interaction, reading, learning, etc) is compelling and what and why certain things will give me certain emotions or desires, or fomo, and things like that. I’ve spent the time organizing everything I’d seen into different boxes in my mind so that I could let go of it but not leave what it is I’m seeking. In simple terms a lot of what I and I assume all of us are searching for is the desire to do or be things, achieve things, experience things, etc. and Now the time has come where it is utterly apparent that now if I spend any more time in entertainment it is nothing other than pointless, wasting life. I’m not being a snob and completely disengaging with it all, of course it has its place and I still use it for certain things each day, but let it be a tool and an enhancer of what it is I’m trying to produce rather than for consumption.
The first week, (now)
There is constant strong urges to just consume. It’s evident my mind is craving dopamine. In some moments I’m literally tweaking as if I’m coming off drugs, there’s literal withdrawals. It’s also become very evident how little to no drive I have. After doing some research the entertainment is also responsible for that. So now, I have to just endure this boredom, and these “withdrawals”. Because it’s real life I want, goals I want, and I have no drive for them. So I must fast for them back.
I seen somewhere that you must earn them. sweat for them. Wake up do hard things to get that fire under you for that drive back. Workout and cold showers off the wake type of thing. Not for some underdog they don’t know me son reason but to literally rewire my brain to have that drive.
Thats all.