I feel guilty about pressing charges
So I’ve been what I think is assaulted. I’m not sure if this extreme enough to be assault so I’m using that word lightly.
But a couple days ago this man came to cut our grass, I think this is the second time he has and my mom wasn’t at home at the time so when he came up and told me he was done, I called her because I didn’t know he wasn’t already paid. He told me to follow him to our backyard, I thought he maybe parked back there or his trailer was but so I walk to the backyard but we stop more on the side of the house. My mom send me the money and he uses like a tap to pay thing on his phone to receive the money.
So after I sent the money he asked for my number so he could send the receipt. I gave him my number and he entered it into the app. He asked if I got it and then stood beside me to see if I got it, he was kinda of touching my breast but he kept saying sorry so I said it was okay. I was looking a bit of a mess it was in the morning I had on a big shirt, my bonnet and some pajama pants so it’s not like they were secured. So I didn’t think he was doing it on purpose.
I was in the phone with my mother at this time she was making sure I got the money and he was paid. After I paid him I hung up and was trying to walk back into the house. He told me to come here again and asked me how old I was, I said 18, he asked me if I had a boyfriend, I said no, he asked why and I told him I was focusing on school and everything. He told me I was beautiful and I said thank you. I tried to walk away again and then he asked me what I thought was for a hug because he put his arms out like he was going in for one. He didn’t speak the best English so I went to hug thinking it would make him go away and he grabbed my breast and squeezed them. I backed away just shocked and tried to walk back into the house. He followed me back and kept saying I had nice breast and can he touch them, like 3 times. I said no and he said, said okay and then said it again. He then told me not to tell my mom and that he’s sorry and that he would be back in 2 weeks.
Just shocked I called and told my mom and she rushed down back to the house. She told me to call the cops, I didn’t want too because I was home alone and didn’t have any information to give them, I couldn’t remember what he looked like, I didn’t know his name, just that he cuts our grass. When she got home I did and they came and took a statement, asked me if I wanted to press charges I said no I just didn’t want him around here anymore but my mom told me too bc it’s wasn’t okay and he needed go to jail. So I pressed charges, wrote my statement and the cops explained everything to me and then they left.
I just feel guilty for pressing charges, I don’t know why. I thought since he didn’t speak the best English that he thought maybe I was saying yes to touching me. I’m not sure, I can barely remember his face and when I talk about it to my mom or therapist I can’t even look them in the eye. I feel horrible.