Hey all
I just needed to post where others would understand. I finally cut my hair today! It was a last minute decision so I didnt have time to back out or think too hard on it and I'm so glad I did it!
Hi.
I'm genderfluid (obviously, I guess).
In my late teens, I 100% identified as man (ftm), but due to lack of support, area I live in, and just basic societal things, I spent the rest of the years living as female. Having kids (2), getting married.
Now I'm 30 and finally settled on genderfluid after thoughts of wishing I was a guy resurfaced a couple years ago.
I mainly feel masc/neutral but I don't mind being referred to as she/her since that's how I outwardly identify even if it doesn't match how I feel.
The only person I'm fully out to is my husband and that was a little nerve wracking. He's made many comments over the years about not being interested in guys, isn't attracted to guys, etc. He's very open and open-minded though. When I finally did tell him he took it better than I thought, however he's the type that doesn't really say much about anything so it took some digging to find out how he truly felt.
He's been very supportive of stuff when I've brought it up and has said very kind and affirming things to me. It's just sometimes when I bring some stuff up, he doesn't always seem to want to talk about it. Though he has said it depends how far I want to take things (transition wise) as it would likely impact his attraction to me and therefor our relationship.
So with all that said, it's been very lonely lately not having anyone to talk to that gets it. I understand this sub says not to ask for DMs, so, where could I find places to connect with people?
Hi all, I hope it's okay to ask this here. If not, feel free to point me in the right direction!
Background info in case it's relevant: I (30, AFAB) have just recently settled on genderfluid as my identity. In my youth (17-18yrs), I identified as Trans, but over time (mostly due to society) just lived as female (now married with 2 kids). Over the years, I have started to become unsettled with who I am and past feelings of masculine physical desires have resurfaced. I don't completely hate the feminine side of myself and where I live it's just easier to continue socially presenting as female/more androgynous.
All that to say, I really hate the monthly bleeding (I always have) and would love to go back on bc to stop it, but I'm worried about if there is any chance it might make me feel more feminine/decrease my genderfluidity due to the extra hormones. (I will never do an IUD or an implant, thinking of going back on the pill)
Maybe it's a non-issue, but I'm just curious if anyone is willing to share their experiences?