How to cope with going back to toxic family for help & their refusal to respect CC boundaries?
Out of options, system failed me, slipped so deep between the cracks am in what feels like a bottomless pit. Already applied to support programs etc. Family "offered help" with practical things but now are not helping and harming by not wearing an N95 properly - my boundaries proactively communicated IN ADVANCE AND AGREED UPON FUCKING DAMNIT. LOSING MY SHIT.
I keep having to repeat myself again and again and again, and feel like my words are not taken seriously and not translated to actions on their part. It's like they're just reading the newspaper when I communicate and then toss the paper in the garbage?! Analogy. A split second of acknowledgement then next moment wash, rinse, repeat same shit, loaded with excuses ("it hurts my nose, the mask straps cause a headache, the straps are too tight" wearing it under their nose, taking it off, etc.). FEEL LIKE I AM SCREAMING INTO A BRICK WALL. They are at MY PLACE. I am IMMUNOCOMPROMISED. I CAN NOT GO STAY ANYWHERE ELSE THIS IS MY HOME.
Idk how to cope with this. I am overexerting to re-explain my boundaries and PEM crashing as a consequence (SEVERE+ ME level with multi- physical, cognitive, emotional, etc. PEM triggers). Extremely low spoons to write more. Looking for support/ideas/help/etc.
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