Who Else Needs a Vacation?
This is just a vent and an opportunity to share what is going on in your life right now! I am not looking for any advice as I do have it pretty good, just in a season of burnout.
I have two kiddos (4 &2). They're both in daycare full time as I own/operate a boutique accounting firm and my spouse works shift work, so is out of town; one week on, one week off.
Aside from the workload (we are still in a busy season), I feel so overwhelmed with:
- Morning routines: breakfast, brushing teeth, getting them dressed (weather appropriately), getting them out the door on time (rarely happens);
- The commute to work- it is anywhere between 25-45 minutes depending on traffic. I need to figure out how to make that more productive
- Staying consistently active; I attempt to do this at lunch, but usually feel like I'm not being productive or present enough at work since I usually get there around 8:30-9am and need to leave for pick up at 4:00pm
- Commute to kids pickup - leave work at 4:00pm and get there by 4:30/4:45pm. We don't get HOME until 5:00ish on good days.
- Dinner - I try to cook nutritious whole foods, they won't touch them 75% of them time.. all they ever want is cheese burgers, nuggets or pizza .. if I cave, I feel like a terrible Mother.
- Bedtime routine - the fighting to get in the bath, brush teeth and pjs is just so exhausting some nights.
- Weekends - my weekends have turned into me being a chauffeur for the kids between registered activities and birthday parties (lets not mention the mental load of keeping track of what gifts to get for what kids and what to with both kids when my spouse is out of town -- usually little sister gets dragged along to the birthday parties).
- On top of that is the grocery shopping, clothes rotation, cleaning the house, getting the yard ready for summer, picking up the things kids need or the household needs that I can't keep on top of, the social life - I make plans and forget to put them in the calendar then double book.
- Night time accidents/ wake up/ kids crawling into my bed
- Early morning wake ups
- NEVER ENDING LAUNDRY
I am not going to lie, I do get a bit envious of my spouse - he has been home for 3 days so far in May. He didn't have to worry about a single thing other than doing daycare pick up on those three days. When he is at work he has a daily, rigid routine that he's able to stick to.
My husband is great when he is home, it is just a bit of an off month as he picked up overtime so the lack of balance between the home needs is wearing on me, especially when work is in a demanding season. Right now, I just feel like I am failing everywhere. I am not consistent with my workouts/meals, I am getting to work late and then having to leave early and not feeling like I'm doing enough, I feel like my go-to is just throwing the TV on for the kids when we are home so I can sit down for 2 minutes or clean/cook/organize.. which I am not even doing a great job at that - I forget to do a lot of things I said I would do. My brain has reached its storage limit.
I am craving a weekend getaway, alone, to a spa or a cabin in the woods where I can just reset, not cook, binge watch tv and exist!