Does anyone else relate to this?
I have a really hard time describing myself and my personality. I feel like sometimes I have multiple personalities. Well mainly 2 distinct main personalities.
I have a hyper competent, confident, curious personality where I feel good and I feel like I can do anything. This personality dives deep into topics, is very intellegent, creative and can do a lot of different things. It is very socialble. It has no problems learning and doing complex tasks.
The other personality is very incompetent, lazy, depressed and can barely function. It has problems talking to people , feels like it can accomplish nothing and has many problems functioning. It gets very emotional and crazy.
The better personality will be active for a few days and then the other personality will come for a few days. Its really jarring the difference between them. It makes me feel crazy, makes me feel incompetent and unable. I really struggle because of it. I wish I could stay in the hyper competent and able personality consistently.
I feel so good when I'm doing well and feel very poorly when I'm not.
I wish I could stay stable at my level of functioning.