For context I know 5 months isn’t a lot of time to save and come to a wedding.
I couldn’t care less about someone not attending, but not my siblings. I have 3 older siblings. My oldest sister I’m not talking to because I’m not okay with her decisions. Her not attending is valid. But my brother? Well he’s basing it off of his partner wants to go, which she’s not because she’s not okay with my family over some imaginary pick me girl beef. And my second sister says she can’t go because it’s a blackout month for work but she went to my cousins baby shower during a blackout month. My parents are only hosting the reception because they missed my first wedding at the courthouse. And now they’re stuck overcompensating because they decided to move an additional hour away from me after I just had another baby.
My entire life I have been put on the back burner as the youngest child. I had an “easy” life because I never did anything bad, I was never allowed to do anything because my siblings did it all and I HAD to be perfect. I felt alone then and I feel more alone now.
I’ve shown up to every life event with them. I was my oldest sister’s maid of honor and I’ve been there for her more like an older sister. I was there for my brother when his daughter was born and so much more after.
I just feel defeated. I’ve never felt more alone than I do now. Even my best friend of 25 years is self absorbed and I have to be the one to text first and I’m just over it all.
I’m just really grateful my boyfriend (now fiancée) is my constant. I guess you only need one person 💖