u/Baklol_Bagula

Has anyone found any cure for the flashbacks of past trauma. Just like you all i have been abused alot my entire life. Majority of the time i am fine but then all of a sudden at any moments memories just flashes back in my head. Making me agitated and somewhat angry.

I am afraid it is affecting my future goals towards which i am working on. I keep going back to cigarettes and alcohol but i want something to atleast put a patch on the wound to lessen the pain for good.

I had a question for self taught developers over here. Has your being self taught any coding language been proven to be a advantage or disadvantage whenever you went to give an interview? 🤔

I think my wife and I are suffering from Vitamin D and calcium deficiency. If I am being honest I don't know where to go or which doctor to consult.

Kisi ko koi doctor pata hai jo ek baar check kar ke medicines de sake ya fir government hospital me kuch medicines milti hain iske liye ??

Just like you all i won the hell lottery and was born from the womb of a narc mother. Life was definitely horrible in childhood but you never know how horrible you had until you see what normal was like, when other children got love without expecting anything in return.

* At the time of getting married my oldest gc sister literally called me a servant dog in front of everyone and narc mom took her side. This was the moment i stopped talking to her for good. Its been 4 years now since i talked to her even if we live in the same apartment building just one floor apart.
* Instead of asking for forgiveness or saying sorry she has done everything to make my life miserable when she saw i was giving my wife the same care which i used to give to her. When i had a fight with my wife she saw that as an opportunity and told me that we should forcefully feed my wife abortion pills and then we will get rid of her.
*When wife got pregnant mother and sister threw me and my wife out of apartment and we both had to buy everything from scratch. There were days when my wife was hungry in the initial days after we moved out but i was just waiting for my salary. Even though parents lived one floor above no one ever came to ask us our well being.
* when my son was born she left my 4 days old son all alone in a 50 bed NICU ward because she wanted a break.
* Now that things are finally better she is putting all the negative stuff in my father's ears to turn him against me. Everytime when she would feed negative stuff in my father's head he would turn abusive towards me and would make mine and my wife's life hell.
* Today i finally took a stand after years of abuse and this wh*re of a mother took this opportunity to tell my dad that this is how abusive i will become towards both of them in their old days. And the final and last person in the house who i used to get along is also against me now.
I am done... just feeling exhausted... mentally,physically,emotionally. I sometimes wonder what sin i must have done that i was born from the womb of such a toxic creature.