I had my first gay experience at 27 in a gay sauna
I am a moroccan, in my twenties living in France. For many years, I kept my identity hidden because of the culture I grew up with. I always tried to suppress this essential part of me, ignore it, feeling ashamed of it .. but it always came back stronger.
One day, since my needs for intimacy kept growing faster and bigger, I understood that I should be accepting of that side of me and live with its flow. My close surroundings do not know about it, and i don’t feel the courage to tell them, maybe not yet. And to get closer to these feelings, I decided to have a first direct experience. Tried some apps, but never had the nerves to meet anyone, only chatting. So the next option i could visualize was the gay sauna. I remember feeling so intimidated by the idea, anxious and not sure about this decision. But I just said screw it let’s go. Before going I’ve read ofc many posts about health concerns, advices for newbies, etc .. i am not into anal so that seems safe according to the sources I’ve seen. Then, last Saturday, i took my courage and went to the local gay sauna. I won’t lie, i hesitated a lot before going in, but i still said to myself let’s at least talk to the staff. They were super friendly, explained everything I needed to know, and I paid the entrance. It was my first time (since many years in a “public” nordic sauna) seeing all those naked men all around with no complex or shame (it was a nudist night). And the funny thing is, I surprisingly was not as intimidated as expected. I calmly took off my clothes, had my small towel with me, and got in to explore the place. I felt so satisfyingly liberated. For the first time in my life, I felt so connected to my body, within a community that accepts me as I am, and where I can have the fun we are all looking for and explore our desires.
And I was also shocked of how I quickly blended in, compared to the stress i had before. I did hold and suck a dick for the first time of my life in a GH, had the very first gay fun experience with a guy, with who i explored some of my deepest desires and had the idea of what it looks like in real life. And since that was a Saturday night, I had more fun than I thought. It felt like I have taken away a weight from my shoulders, and I stayed for 2h there. I also took my time to relax, enjoy the sauna, jacuzzi, and all the cozy stuff. Mind you it was an amazing experience, and the sexual fantasy did not come as high as I thought it to be, but still great and worth trying for me.
By the end of it, I walked out, satisfied and proud of myself for trying it without needing anyone to personally guide me there. And as you can guess, i planned to come back, and checked here in Reddit how often do guys go, which for people my age is almost twice a week, and it seems very reasonable. Also I want to precise that I did not make this interfere with my responsibilities, since I want to keep the balance in the other aspects of my life. Then few days later, i went a tuesday at 10:30 pm, and the place was closing at midnight. I was a bit disappointed since it was mainly old men who were not my type, besides one by the end who approached me and gave me interest hints, but I had to leave a bit earlier to catch my transport home so i resisted starting anything with him. Still it was a relaxed and calm night, even thought free from a fun experience. And since i had 2 days later a week travel where I was going to be busy, i decided to give it a try again the next day, and God that was a pleasant one, better than the first time, and sooooo relaxing again. Anyway, when rethinking those experiences, it was not only about a sexual activity, but the feeling of belonging, peace and acceptance that was widely present, and i did not feel lonely at all.
The post was made to share this experience and talk it out. If you have any advices you see could be useful for an amateur like me, i would be glad to read them :)