u/BallExternal954

I lost my husband 13 months ago. I have gotten used to my new routine without my husband. I have read that year 2 is worse than year 1. At this point I am just really lonely. I dread any time off work on the weekends because I don't want to have free time. I have always been a person that wanted/needed to be in a relationship at all times. I have tried dating since my husband passed and nothing has worked...the bar is set so high. I know I can be alone and be "happy" than be with someone and settle. I just don't have an interest of dating anymore....just don't want to be disappointed again and again. I just feel so lonely, I hate it. I wish my husband was still here.