Did he ever like me? I can't seem to forget him..
I'm 33M indian dude.. 2 weeks ago I matched with this latino guy 27M on tinder.. (exactly a week later from my birthday)we decided to meet the same Saturday (day before Father's day) we matched. He's tall, slim and has a great apartment and tech job at American express, drove tesla. He was also a top with a good junk. I'm a vers who's wanting to find a partner whom I can bottom for. I'm def more muscly than him, but shorter... i have a decent career as well..but he was such a complete package that it didn't matter to me that he wasn't as muscly as my usual type.
We were hooking up at his apartment but they he wanted to take me to his bed .. and i told him no.. we are supposed to be on a date.
So we dressed up and we went to bars that night.. made out, hooked up late. I got lost in club and i thought he went away with another guy.. but instead he was outside waiting for me. I went back home. He kept being very romantic and even asked us to ask chatgpt for red flags. We actually admired each others red flags.. coz that's what we wanted..someone who's ambitious, great career and well off. He was being very lovey dovey, even have me his number.. and wrote.. I'm xxx, your bf..Which was pretty cute. I never makeout or hookup in public but I was doing it that night with him..
Sunday..again we met 2nd time and made out
Monday again we met for a dinner date 3rd time, we hooked up. I even asked him to get a broom which he did and got his apartment clean.
Tbh it felt like he had money but no class.. like he would eat out everyday and buy shit he would not need..I was trying to help him get some direction and make right choices coz I was older than him.
Now I was hooked to him...I started to fall and I thought he was too.
Few days passed.. we met now a week from first we met on Sunday.. this is 4th time us meeting..he told me had plans on Friday and Saturday so he couldn't. He was not very responsive anymore.. very rarely would reply to me.
We were texting and I told him.. how do u expect us to date if you don't want to meet or even initiate conversations.. if you don't want to continue let me know now. He said no I want to, that's why I'm wanting to grab dinner with you.
But this was a sad sad sad date for me.. he was pretty casual with it.. he told me had hooked with his friend who was leaving the town.. later he told me he had known this 37yo white guy for 2 months.. and he slept in his bed on Saturday night..I was really started to get sad now. Then he mentions there's another guy he had dated known who he is just friends with now and has boundaries with.
He also opened about this Pakistani guy he had been seeing for 6 months and broke up 2 months ago.. he was very depressed coz the guy was closeted and didn't take the relationship further.
Hearing all this..I could just sense my dream crushing.. my heart sad breaking every second. The prince treatment I was enjoying was getting over. I opened upto him that night.. and told him I really appreciate you being honest but this is breaking my heart. He said " I'm being honest with you though. This friend of mine is leaving.. but the sex is so good. He gives it to me anytime I want. The other guy I'm now friends with is a slut I don't really like that.. that's why we broke up."
He had even done drugs with this guy and hooked up with him.. (I never do any of this.. but even smoke weed.. i can barely handle alcohol)
It was all sounding like a nightmare to me. He kept saying to me at first when we met that he didn't like sluts, jobless losers and here he was fucking one last night.
But i was like why didn't you hit me up.. you could have dropped your friend home and hmu instead..I haven't slept in your bed.. and instead you had another guy spend all night with you? You keep saying you don't like loses and want someone with a career and success like me.. but instead you go out and fuck them? How does that make any sense?
He said my ex came in front of me and made out with this guy.. he's so cheap. I told him .. maybe he was trying to get your attention.. he got so excited listening to that.
I told him.. you're not ready to date . I cannot be one of the options.. you cannot have everyone.. I'll leave now if you don't want me around. But don't play with my feelings like this.
He told me he was going to go to beach with his ex who's now his friend and I was shocked..I was like why are you not wanting to hangout with me instead.. he kept giving awkward silences.
We later that night went for a walk.. he understood my feelings and dropped me off. I told him he has to make a choice, I'm trying to pull you out of this life.. but u keep going back.. let me help you, please. I really want this to work. I told him I need to meet you tomorrow and we need to hookup. He told me he wants to use him, make him pay for shit and just his bottom..
I thought things had changed but they were now even worse.
This is the last time I met him on Monday. His work ends up being pretty late..im waiting in bed.. guess what? He cannot perform, is not able to get hard.. the entire attitude has shifted. He kept setting oh I only like one position when he had fucked me in another position. Like he read trying to say or do things to just make me not like him..It wasn't romantic anymore. I have an interview tomorrow morning still I'm hanging out with him and having dinner..I went back home 1am.. the good bye was him trying to kiss my cheek until I moved it to my lips.
I watched him leave as I dropped him off from my car... and if I tell..I cried the entire drive home.. like I was balling...I know this was just the last time I'd see him. My heart was so broken.
I know this sounds like normal to most of you. But I have really never dated anyone like him. I'm a good looking guy, but the treatment he gave me in the beginning just made me so happy. His willingness to listen to me. But the more i thought about this..I realized he was just looking to use me to get over his ex, he knew I was falling for him especially him being so romantic in the beginning which he didn't have to, he was playing with me.
I counted everyday every minute since I sent him the last text on Tuesday this week.. every day hoping he'd reply back.. he just didn't. I cried so much..hoping God would listen to me but he just didn't. I deleted his number and told myself that if he wants me, he will message me and reach out.
Here I was thanking God that he had given me a bday gift but now it felt like a curse. Why would this guy do this to me? Why play with someone's feelings? Just keep it real.
I didn't even jo for a week since my last message to him. I just don't know how someone can be like that. He has broken me..I just don't know what to do..I keep crying. Nothing feels the same. I feel so used and just so cheap.
I just don't know what did I do to make him go away..I was just wanting to love him and protect him.. but he just wanted the exes, his past.. I'm just so sad and I'm crying..2 weeks ago same night today we were kissing and happy.. tonight I'm crying and sad but he's out there probably with one of his exes or friends...
I have no friends, no family in this new city, he knew what would this do to me.. how difficult it has been for me to deal with all this alone.
I just I'm so stupid for falling for his tricks..I just feel so stupid, dumb, sad and cheap. I don't know how to forget him.. and all those dates with him.. he just used me, he has just so casually thrown me out of his life. It just hurts so much. I'm crying everyday..a grown man just balling like crazy. Idk why hasn't he even messaged me.. it's been a week.